Today I had a huge revelation.
At work my boss gave me mindless things to do.
As I was practicing my counting, I decided to use the higher-thinking part of my brain.
I thought about my doubts.
Doubts on some paths I hesitate to take.
I'm a kind of girl that analyzes everything before she makes a decision.
Unless of course I'm in "the moment" and my brain is too excited to think...that's
when I "just do."
So why can't I "just have faith?"
I don't have many faiths unfortunately. I lost them through time after being
wronged and thinking a lot.
It's just me.
But...Love seems different.
Love...it should be the easiest to place your faith...
I tell myself that I will.
And it's as easy as that. I commit to having faith.
Gradually I'll get there and have faith in other things...I won't think so harshly
and deeply.
I need to risk.
Why not risk in something GREAT! Something worth the jump.
So....
"Just...
jump!"
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
Bones
Bones, the tv show of course, sparked another career interest.
Forensic Anthropologist.
I did a little research online and found some fascinating facts. There are not that many forensic anthropologists in the world. I watched a video online that stated at that time there were only 150! So you'd think that the job is grisly, stressful, or meant for people who have large learning capacities. What kind of person would have a passion for such a career?
I feel sort of tricked. As I did more research I figured out that being a forensic anthropologist is NOT exactly the life of Dr. Temperance Brennan (whose name I love). Not all F.A.s know five different marital arts, travel with a handsome FBI agent (soon-to-be soulmate), and works in a lab with close comrades, all personally and intellectually focused on solving a murder mystery and putting the "bad guy" in his rightful place.
Of course I first knew that forensic anthropology was heavily science-based. The show "Bones" portrays it as such joined with a rare friends circle, sprinkled with a little comedy. Science does not scare me or fuse some historic distaste within me. I am a firm believer and lover in its nature and practice.
How can a job in forensic anthropology promise me a high-end facility, flourishing with amiable people, respect, and a trustworthy team? Must you be the best of the best? And once you are, is that enough to get you the ticket to paradise?
For some reason I have better hope in other professions like being a professor or a teacher or even a writer to have all these things for me in the future.
Will the journey be exciting? I do know that the purpose is worthy, but is it ME? I would love to become Temperance Brenann. If only it were a real possibility. If there was someone or something that could reassure me of such a possibility!
Who can I be? What can I become? Will my life be the most thrilling and carry the most meaning?
We shall see.
Forensic Anthropologist.
I did a little research online and found some fascinating facts. There are not that many forensic anthropologists in the world. I watched a video online that stated at that time there were only 150! So you'd think that the job is grisly, stressful, or meant for people who have large learning capacities. What kind of person would have a passion for such a career?
I feel sort of tricked. As I did more research I figured out that being a forensic anthropologist is NOT exactly the life of Dr. Temperance Brennan (whose name I love). Not all F.A.s know five different marital arts, travel with a handsome FBI agent (soon-to-be soulmate), and works in a lab with close comrades, all personally and intellectually focused on solving a murder mystery and putting the "bad guy" in his rightful place.
Of course I first knew that forensic anthropology was heavily science-based. The show "Bones" portrays it as such joined with a rare friends circle, sprinkled with a little comedy. Science does not scare me or fuse some historic distaste within me. I am a firm believer and lover in its nature and practice.
How can a job in forensic anthropology promise me a high-end facility, flourishing with amiable people, respect, and a trustworthy team? Must you be the best of the best? And once you are, is that enough to get you the ticket to paradise?
For some reason I have better hope in other professions like being a professor or a teacher or even a writer to have all these things for me in the future.
Will the journey be exciting? I do know that the purpose is worthy, but is it ME? I would love to become Temperance Brenann. If only it were a real possibility. If there was someone or something that could reassure me of such a possibility!
Who can I be? What can I become? Will my life be the most thrilling and carry the most meaning?
We shall see.
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